Broken

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain(In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

Ni Hao 2012

Haihai. 


Well, skarang gue menjalani setengah semester lagi menuju kelas 12. Dan bentar lagi kuliah.......*krik krik*. Di tahun 2012 ini gue akan berumur 27. EH 17 deng, udah ngebet kawin aja haha *abaikan*. Menuju sweet seventeen ini gue mengalami bagaimana menuju proses kedewasaan. So many conflicts. Gue banyak dapetin pengalaman yang lebih membuka mata gue. 


My grandfather died. Gue sangat kehilangan beliau. Setiap makan malam gue duduk disamping beliau. Sekarang, kursi itu kosong dan biasanya diduduki oleh adek gue yang bermulut gelambir. Dan setiap gue ngaca, gue pasti keinget trus, "Kembaran gue telah tiada" sambil jedokin kepala ke cermin yea gagitu juga sih. Ya, gue telah kehilangan sosok yang sangat gue agungkan selama ini.


Gak juga kehilangan anggota keluarga, gue juga kehilangan teman dekat. Gara- gara ini gue sampe ga makan 30 hari *loh puasa dong*.Yang pasti gue depresi. Ya depresi. I know, seiring berjalannya waktu, people change. Things will never be the same again. Sekarang ini gue hanya menyesali apa yang terjadi. SAMPAI DETIK INI. oke lebai. dan ada sebuah lirik yang berbunyi : 


That people come into our lives for a reason 
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow 
(For Good-Wicked)


Jadi gue sikapi semua ini dengan dewasa. Tuhan pasti selalu mempunyai skenario yang terbaik untuk kita bukan? eaasik. 
Gue cuma mau bilang sama temen deket gue itu. seperti lirik yang berbunyi :


I hope you're happy now 
That you're choosing this
(Defying Gravity-Wicked)


Galau ga? engga sih kyknya. Yang galau gue haha. 




Hmm, ceritanya lanjut kapan- kapan ya guys *mata beler*. GBU all! Zaijian



xoxo, Nadindra